Ecce, Etchy, Itchy, Etsy

After attending my final panel at RSA, I had the chance to catch up for a bit with @caseyboyle. At one point, he asked me if I liked writing, a question that prompted an answer that was a little more personal than he might have expected, at least three separate instances of esprit de l’escalier on my part on the drive home, and a blog post that you’re reading now. It’s a funny question, but one I’m glad he asked, because my answer to it changes on a regular basis, but rarely moreso than it has in the past couple of weeks.

My best answer, I think, is that for the past few years, I’ve loved writing, but not been in love with writing.

Thing is, I love being in love with writing. That’s where I get things done. So it’s not to say that I haven’t written for three years. From comments on drafts to syllabi to memos to emails to the occasional chapter for an edited collection, I’ve been writing plenty. And yet I haven’t.

One of my favorite books is Nietzsche’s Ecce Homo, for the sheer pleasure I get from the chapter titles. Heck, it’s probably been close on to twenty years since I’ve read the whole book, but if I were creating a wall-sized, heart-shaped corkboard collage to writing, there’d be a space reserved for a pdf of that table of contents: “Why I am so clever,” “Why I write such good books,” “Why I am a destiny”! They make me smile every time I look. Say what you will about Freddy, but if nothing else, his work reminds me of the mood that I need to be in if I want to really write.

Oh yes, it’s arrogance. But it’s also joy and confidence and the feeling that writing is downhill, where I just have to move my fingers fast enough to let the words out. Even if I’m writing purely for my own thought process (something I only really do when I’m in love with writing), that feeling allows me to move across the threshold between silence and writing, almost effortlessly. Regardless of what, where, or why I’m writing, it feels like making, like I’m carving up that block of language to find the insight buried within.

And I can’t not write. The last couple of weeks, I’ve found myself effortlessly bouncing back and forth among Facebook, Twitter, this space, a couple of wikis, and three different open word-processing files that I’m working on. I just start going, clicking on tabs, dropping in and out, throwing out words, and next thing I know, it’s three hours later. That’s a zone where I go crazy if I don’t write.

Unfortunately, I know well the opposite of that. When I was convalescing in the fall, my entire life was a matter of tracing the steps between my bed, couch, and kitchen, with very occasional forays to the grocery store. Every email was an imposition, every piece of required writing that I had to do weighed on me. @jodienicotra reminded me in her RSA talk that I wrote a bit in my book about Roland Barthes’ discussion of writing as intransitive and transitive, a distinction I’d forgotten about but seems appropriate here: when I’m not writing (intransitive), it makes all the (transitive) writing I do overwhelmingly hard. And it’s a vicious cycle, because all of the Xs and Ys that I have to write (transitive) crowd out the (intransitive) writing.

Every interaction that my writing initiates exerts inertia on me–rejections and/or neglect mean that they just don’t understand me, while citations and/or successes mean that I’ve got expectations to live up to. My own will-to-write is besieged on every side; there’s no steady state that I can achieve. What’s worse is that no one else even has to see it. I experience the full range of reactions to my own work, and peck away at my desire to keep at it.

Lately, I’ve been browsing Etsy on occasion, and while any other Web2 app would make the same point for me, there’s something encouraging about the aggregate shamelessness of that site. I don’t mean that in a snarky way. Rather, it’s a space that lowers the threshold to a minimum for people who make stuff. They don’t have to convince a retailer to pick them up, or make an argument about how their work targets this or that demographic. There’s amazing stuff there, and crazy stuff, and sometimes the rare combination of the two. It’s a lesson I need to relearn for writing, over and over and over: just make the words fit together, put them out there, and get rid of the hope and fear that comes from obsessing about the outcome.

Be arrogant. Be industrious. Don’t stand in your own way. Be shameless. Write.

Seriously, writing, it wasn’t you. It was me.

<3

The Tweetability Index

wherein I consider the hows, whats, whys of Twitter at academic conferences

I am decidedly pro-Twitter, so I’m not going to spend a lot of time apologizing for it or even necessarily advocating for its use. Though if you push me, I will. I think that Twitter in particular (and FB to a lesser extent) provides an extra social layer of activity for conference goers, much better access for folks who aren’t there, and a crowdsourced guide to the area (making the academic conf less of a non-place a la Augé). And honestly, for those who aren’t interested in using it, there’s no real loss in either direction. It’s not everyone’s cup of tea, but it doesn’t need to be.

RSA is kind of an odd bird in our field, conference-wise, which is part of what’s got me thinking about this:

 

RSA, for those of us on the comp side of things, is the one conference that steadily and selectively publishes conference proceedings. As a result, I think that many people write the “publishable” version of their talks (and subsequently read them aloud), rather than versioning them out. I have to admit, the last thing I have time to do when I’m prepping for a conference is to write a whole separate version. I’m at a place where I simply do the presentation version, without worrying about the published volume. I still have my slides from 2010, for example.

All of this is by way of explaining why I think there are some presentations that are significantly more difficult to tweet than others. And part of that has to do with what I would describe as a “close writing” style: dense, careful, accretive, etc. I like close writing as a term, because I think that it’s possible to write in a specific register for an audience of close readers. And in fact, that’s not an unusual style to find in print. It’s not good or bad; rather, it’s a style tailored to a particular medium and audience. Conference presentations are a different medium, of course, and I won’t rehearse the kajillion people who have critiqued the humanities for their (lack of) expertise when it comes to delivery (“How can you know so much about rhetoric, but not be able to…?!” blah blah blah). In a closely written essay, skipping words or flipping sentences matters. It undermines your credibility, makes your ideas more difficult to follow, and for those of us with serious introversion and/or stage fright, it piles on the anxiety.

And yet. There are advantages to writing for presentation a little differently. One of the things I started doing, even before I finally made my personal shift to speaking from notes rather than reading, was to place an upper limit on the number of words in any sentence. I started paying really close attention to the intricacy and order of my clauses. A lot of closely written essays are like mysteries, whose final payoff doesn’t arrive until the end. But when you listen to such an essay, it’s really hard to hold all the moving pieces in the right places in your head as you’re getting there. You don’t get to go back and read it a second time to make sure you understand. So in writing for listeners (v readers), I started trying to go with a much more pyramid approach–even if it was something as simple as laying out the basic structure of my talk at the beginning, and tossing in a signpost or two. Here’s what I’ll talk about today, here’s where I’m going next, here’s what I’ve told you, etc.

It seems to me that there’s an added challenge when it comes to Twitter. Imagine a talk where the speaker is providing a blockquote from another scholar, and someone in the audience livetweets that the speaker is drawing on Theorist X regarding Topics A, B, and C, and sends it out there. Whereupon our speaker finishes the quote, and then announces that it’s the opposite of what s/he wants to focus on today. That kind of move is innocuous in print; on Twitter, it can misrepresent the speaker’s position, and any number of consequences might flow from that mistake. One of the things I try to be careful about as I’m tweeting is just that sort of issue–I try to be careful to make my tweets genuinely representative of the talk, but also informative for someone who might not be there. It’s tricky stuff, and close writing can make it trickier.

I do think that writing with more signposts is one easy solution, as are shorter sentences, more direct sentence constructions, and less reliance on the epiphany model of print scholarship. In a presentation, the audience is there (barring the occasional rudeness). Instead of worrying about holding something back until the end so they’ll keep reading, it’s important to provide them with some help so that they don’t get lost and stop listening.

This is where the staring at the floor thing doesn’t make lots of sense to me. I think that a closely written essay can be made a lot more accessible to an audience with a slide deck that has nothing in it but words from the presentation itself. I don’t know that folks would want to do the full-on Lessig style presentations, but honestly, even a few slides with outline or section headings and citations (h/t @johnmjones) can provide signposting even if the essay doesn’t. But I’d go one step further, and actually drop in thesis statements onto slides–we already have a model for this in the form of “pull quotes.” I’m a Presentation Zen guy, so I do this already (with big splashy pix), but a deck of 8-10 pull quotes, sized appropriately for tweeting? That’s a matter of 10-15 minutes of copy/pasting from an essay, and all of a sudden, you’ve made your essay easier to follow and much more shareable. And a co-panelist can run the deck from your script, if you don’t want to divide your attention. (You can do something similar with handouts, yes, but then you’ve got to worry about logistics (copying, distribution, last-minute edits, etc.).)

For me, the shareability is a big point. I’ve gotten copies of 5 or 6 presentations (either scripts or vids) over the last few months from people whose work I heard about through conference twitter streams. In a couple of cases, they were from complete strangers at conferences I’ve never attended. On a couple of different occasions at RSA this week, I had people contact me privately to ask someone for a copy of one of the presentations I tweeted–those are connections that simply aren’t going to happen if we have to wait until the published volume comes out (and only then, if a paper is selected).

So I guess, technically, I’m not arguing here that everyone should be using Twitter so much as I’m saying that we should all understand what it entails to present to an audience where Twitter is used. A slightly different point, but worth making, I think. And something I’m thinking about for the talk I’ll be giving in June.

Philadelphia #rsa12

So, the past 3 days were my trip down to Philadelphia to drop in on the biennial Rhetoric Society of America conference. I hadn’t really realized that this was my first conference since the last time I was at RSA (2 yrs ago in Minneapolis), but there you go. I’d really been keeping my health issues a secret for the most part, and there were lots of people at RSA this go-round who hadn’t heard about my surgery last summer. I got my fair share of “you look great!” comments, to which I replied, mostly, “Thanks, but I wouldn’t recommend my weight loss plan.” For those of you who might not have heard (I haven’t been especially public about this), I had my gall bladder removed last August, followed by several procedures to remove some rogue gallstones that were taking up residence in the nooks and crannies of my digestive system. Besides a generally healthier lifestyle, one side effect was that I lost close to 60 pounds, a bit of which has filled back in, but most of which is gone now. Honestly, this is the probably the first conference I’ve felt like I could handle physically, and I only really committed to 1.5 days of it. So far, so good. June will mark another test of my energy levels (along with the added stress of presentation).

So there was all that. I have to be pretty vigilant about my intake, and so I really didn’t avail myself of meal invites and restaurant fare, and that makes me a little sad. I should have planned better. I did visit a raw bar for lunch on Friday, but mostly grazed on light appetizers/salads the rest of the time.

My conference experience was pretty regimented:

A panel: Reid, Rickert, and Hawk on Latour
B panel: took it easy, ran into folks
C panel: Rice, Grant, & Teston (subbing for Nicotra) on delivery
D panel: had a meeting
E panel: Jensen, Rollins, Muckelbauer, & Nealon on “gambling”
F panel: early in the morning
G panel: Leston, Richardson, Brooks, & Collamati on authenticity

Good panels, all. I live-tweeted the sessions, so I don’t really feel compelled to recap them here. In thinking about that process, I did end up (I think) getting swept up into a panel proposal for C&W next year about the relationship between Twitter and academic conferences. I learned that, in addition to the difference between writing to be read vs to be heard, there’s a difference between both/either of those and writing to be tweeted. Certain style papers lent themselves better to the live-tweeting I did–it’s not really a good v bad thing, though, just a difference that I notice as I was reflecting. So I may talk about that at C&W next year if the panel flies.

I also had a chance to spend some time with Laura, who’s recapped our conversation better than I probably could :) It’s interesting to me to have “old friends” in Internet time, which is completely different from academic time or just general life time, but she is one, and I really enjoyed catching up with her.

Honestly, that’s about it. It was a good trip. I didn’t wear myself out, and the drive back zipped by as I thought about the stuff I’m looking to work on over the next few months.

Lingua Fracta wordled

I’ve already posted this to Facebook, so no x-post, but I thought I would store this here as well. Here’s a wordle of my first book:

a wordle of Lingua Fracta

Sync 2

I wish I knew who to thank for this, but a couple of weeks ago, I got turned on to IFTTT, a simple little site with lots of interesting applications. I signed up for it, then forgot about it until a couple of days ago. IFTTT stands for “if this then that,” and it really isn’t more complicated than that. The site allows you to activate “channels” of activity, like WordPress, Twitter, Facebook, Evernote, Tumblr, and a bunch more. Then it allows you to set up conditional actions based on things that happen in those channels.

For example, if someone tweets with a particular hashtag, IFTTT can add it to a facebook page, post it on WordPress or Tumblr, create a note of it for you in Evernote, etc. I’m currently in the process of rejiggering my whole personal mecology, and I’m finding the potential for this tool to be pretty incredible.

So I was thinking: if you were running a conference, and wanted an easy way to archive those tweets that contain links to presentation scripts, videos, slide decks, et al., it’d involve two steps. First, I’d create a separate #hashtag for conference materials (no one wants to have to wade through 100s or 1000s of conference tweets to find those materials), and then, just set up a recipe on IFTTT to archive (on FB, WP, Tumblr, wherever) those tweets (and thus the links). Leave it on for a week or 2 after the conference, publicize the heck out of the alt-hashtag, and voila. You’d have a single page that links to all the docs, blogposts, etc., with presentation materials.

Super easy, and it would save folks the trouble of hand-updating an archive page, not to mention the need to scour a twitter feed for this info.

Thanks again to the person who tipped me to IFTTT — if I manage to retrace my steps, I’ll link back to the page where I found it…

cgbrooke

urrgh. maybe this is the last #cgbtest: http://t.co/yCl25WFC
http://t.co/yCl25WFC

Sync

This is basically a test post. If I’m going to post multiple-paragraph status updates on Facebook, then there’s really no reason not to pull my blogging self out of mothballs. I found him buried underneath a pile of half-read books and mildly-used peripherals in the corner.

Anyhow, I’m slowly trying to reassemble the pieces of a writing habit that hasn’t been the norm for me in a few years. Too much of what writing I’ve done in the last few has been done in the long shadow of deadlines, and there’s no part of me that loves that kind of writing. This isn’t so much a test of my will to write — that’s been ongoing for the past couple of weeks — as it is a test of the plugin that will publish me both here and on FB. I’m in the process of rebuilding my digital self as well, and this is a piece of that.

So, testing testing.

Page 4 of 4«1234